After an evening of hitting up the clubs in San Francisco's Marina District with Julie and Dan, the three of us went to Julie's apartment to watch Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. I love that movie, but I immediately crashed on the couch five or ten minutes into it.

I had a series of strange dreams there on Julie's couch last night. The only one that I can still remember though, I see as a very positive sign...

I was at my house in Mountain View, and out from under the shrub beneath the window, a giant black and red spider emerged. I'd say it was about six feet long with a big fat butt. As anyone who knows me can attest to, I hate spiders. I'm afraid of them. They really creep me out.

But instead of running away from this spider or yelling for someone to squish it for me, in this dream I just looked at that ugly spider, and even though I was really scared, I raised my foot up and squashed it into black and purple goop. (nice imagery huh?)

Instead of running away, I destroyed my fear.

It's a big mental shift for me. Even during the dream I remember being surprised by my ability to squish the spider. I guess I am overcoming a lot of my fears lately. I'm growing up. I'm becoming a more full person, I'm living life.

It feels good.